Be As A Child – Part 2

 “Yet to all who received Him, to those who believed in His name, He gave the right to become children of God.” John 1:12

Cont’d from the book “In God’s Arms” by Pam Waugh

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I knew from then on that God wanted me to look at Him that way.  He was my daddy, not my judge, not my condemner.  He was my loving Father who would never leave me.  He wanted to hold me and make me feel safe.  He could not wait to see me when I woke up in the morning, and He hoped that I would spend time with Him.  He was so excited when I talked to Him, and I was so important to Him that He could not wait until we talked!  I would remember how it was with my little girls.  How wonderful it felt to hold them in my arms and read them a bedtime story.  It was such a tender moment as a parent.  I also remember how great it was when we sat down and had one of those once in a lifetime conversations.  It was a time to cherish.  I remember wanting to protect them and make every decision for them.  When they got hurt, I would fix their boo boo or hold them while they cried.  It showed me how God felt about me as His child.  That was how I had to teach myself about God.  I had to retrain my mind.  Romans 12:3 says, “Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.  Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is – His good, pleasing and perfect will.”  The pattern of this world had made me bitter and angry.  It kept me from trusting God and from seeing who God really was, and that He loved me unconditionally as His child, but the world had convinced me I was a worthless, rotten person.  When I could start seeing God as he truly was loving and graceful in all His ways, I realized that it was me.  It was my pain that kep me from seeing God’s truth, grace, and love for me.  He showed Himself to me in ways that I had no way of knowing until they happened!  When we start stepping is when He starts leading!  My fear had kept me from stepping out and trusting God!

When you go through healing, you have a lot of ups and downs.  I was really down and struggling again, not knowing what was going on inside.  There were times in my healing that I would be very sad, lonely, and confused, wondering if the pain would ever end, even after God had given me the most glorious moments with Him.  This was one of those times.  it was about four to five months after my counselor had prayed for me about being God’s little girl.  I was at my daughter’s church, which has become my church now, and the service was coming to an end.  Once the service had ended, Pastor Mark said everyone could leave, unless of course, God told you to come to the altar and you did not.  I knew God had been speaking to me during the invitation, and I was being my old stubborn self, but when Pastor Mark said that, I knew God was telling me to get myself up there, so I went forward and knelt to pray.  I had to choose to be obedient, or I would miss what He had for me.  I didn’t want to go, but I did.  As I was on my knees, I was seeking God and crying out to Him.  I remember crying and weeping at the altar and the pastor came over to me.  He touched me on the shoulder and said these simple words, “God just wants you to know you’re His little girl, and He loves you with all His heart.”  what a powerful moment that was!  This man didn’t know me.  He did not know my struggles, but God had come to me to remind me of who I was again.  His little girl.  I have always had to remind myself of this, but I was remewing my mind daily.  When a bad thought would come, I could remind myself that I was God’s little girl.  Because I am His child, I can jump in His lap at anytime I want.  He’s there for me.  He told me that Himself! 

Are you stepping into the things God has for you, or are you allowing your fear to keep you right where you are?  God loves you so much and we wants you to run into His arms, but you must take the first step to go there.  If you have Jesus as your savior, then you are a child of the almighty God!  You have access to the greatest!  Run to your heavenly father!  Your daddy of all daddys!!  He loves you and smiles when he sees you coming!

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