I guess I should start from the point of my return. When I was 13 years old my grandmother passed away. She was my rock in my crumbling and rotting world. I won’t go into details here, but so many of us have gone through so much of the same stuff! At that age we are so wrapped up in ourselves and the world that we don’t notice or care to notice one another. Shortly before I turned 14 I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior and was baptized. It didn’t take long for Satan to start ripping it all away. It started that very night!! I thought to myself, how can this be happening already? It hasn’t even been one whole day since I was baptized! The evil one kept on pushing my “weakness” button.
Soon I had fallen away from the Lord and his plans for me. I got into bad relationships with people. I just wanted to be loved by someone , anyone. When my oldest child was little and I was a single mom, I had gone back to my family that had pushed me away from Christ. I felt so alone, so ugly, worthless and humiliated that I called my very best friend Pam and asked her to take my son because I was going to take my own life! I don’t even remember our talk because I was so out of it. Once again God showed me his love and I didn’t go through with it. I was reading my Bible and going to church but the evil one found my “weakness” button again.
I did get married when my son was 6 years old to a wonderful man. I have known Mark since the 4th grade. He was my best friend then and now! Everything was going along fine I thought. A few years after our youngest was born my husband was diagnosed with malignant melanoma. He was in stage 3 CANCER! I thought “Oh my gosh! What am I going to do now!? We have 4 children at home , young children at that!” The day he was having his biopsy on his liver the doctors had told us “ if it is in his liver you need to get your affairs in order because you won’t have a year left.” My friend came to the hospital with us and she prayed for my husband. People I didn’t even know were praying for him. Pam was there showing us God’s love once again! After Mark’s surgery I asked her why she cared for me and my family so much? She said “because I love you and so does GOD”! Mark and I had a year of a living nightmare with chemo shots and other meds, but I knew in my heart God was with us.
We started going to a small church and began our family’s journey into the kingdom of God! Our family was baptized and we have never looked back! It took the courage and undying love of an earthly friend to get me to the Heavenly Father Jesus Christ because he called her to me. I look back and think why did I wait so long? My journey may not have been a bed of roses , it would still have its thorns, but I know I would have been carried all the way! God does not guarantee it will be easy right here right now, but it will be worth it when we get to sit at his right hand as priceless and precious princesses we were always meant to be!
If you are feeling hurt or sorrow just go to God’s throne just as you are. Accept Him, He loves you just the way you are!
Soon I had fallen away from the Lord and his plans for me. I got into bad relationships with people. I just wanted to be loved by someone , anyone. When my oldest child was little and I was a single mom, I had gone back to my family that had pushed me away from Christ. I felt so alone, so ugly, worthless and humiliated that I called my very best friend Pam and asked her to take my son because I was going to take my own life! I don’t even remember our talk because I was so out of it. Once again God showed me his love and I didn’t go through with it. I was reading my Bible and going to church but the evil one found my “weakness” button again.
I did get married when my son was 6 years old to a wonderful man. I have known Mark since the 4th grade. He was my best friend then and now! Everything was going along fine I thought. A few years after our youngest was born my husband was diagnosed with malignant melanoma. He was in stage 3 CANCER! I thought “Oh my gosh! What am I going to do now!? We have 4 children at home , young children at that!” The day he was having his biopsy on his liver the doctors had told us “ if it is in his liver you need to get your affairs in order because you won’t have a year left.” My friend came to the hospital with us and she prayed for my husband. People I didn’t even know were praying for him. Pam was there showing us God’s love once again! After Mark’s surgery I asked her why she cared for me and my family so much? She said “because I love you and so does GOD”! Mark and I had a year of a living nightmare with chemo shots and other meds, but I knew in my heart God was with us.
We started going to a small church and began our family’s journey into the kingdom of God! Our family was baptized and we have never looked back! It took the courage and undying love of an earthly friend to get me to the Heavenly Father Jesus Christ because he called her to me. I look back and think why did I wait so long? My journey may not have been a bed of roses , it would still have its thorns, but I know I would have been carried all the way! God does not guarantee it will be easy right here right now, but it will be worth it when we get to sit at his right hand as priceless and precious princesses we were always meant to be!
If you are feeling hurt or sorrow just go to God’s throne just as you are. Accept Him, He loves you just the way you are!
By Louetta Morrill
